This will also give him a chance to consider if he made a mistake. The message is: that you are indebted to her brilliance and truly, truly appreciate her efforts to put up with you being such a pain in the butt (while undiagnosed). (e.g. One of many examples.. but I dont argue, I dont fight back, I silently just do something else that removes something happy for me to not cause discomfort for him 19 years together. (Lying repeatedly, drinking too much, cheating while travelling, being clued out and not bothering (his words) when he needed to care in important situations, gaslighting, back stabbing, coming on to my women friends and trying to gossip about me, being an unengaged parent so I needed to do it all.) I am in the same position as you. They just kept blaming me for everything. He hates it, I hate it, but if he cant function without being told, reminded, prompted and held accountable, then he cant follow through. It might be that, when you and your husband are a bit further on your ADHD education and treatment journey, youll start feeling better. I feel sometimes everything is stripped of personal choices. In my experience, I truly was convinced that my spouse did love me but didnt know how to show it. Yeah sometimes I have to close my eyes in the car to avoid jumping out of my seat and grabbing the wheel or dive behind (almost under) a parked car in a parking lot (parking lots alone are triggers) when someone decides to set off an M80 in said parking lot because its early July but when those happen theyre over when theyre over. I held out hope that he might actually be elsewhere in the house, out of earshot during and after my fall. The break up wasn't toxic, as I do genuinely care for him but the last things he said hurt me- his hearts not in it, he can't force it, he's not happy in life right now, he wants to be left alone. As the years have gone by, things have gotten better. I do still have surges of anger when I see socks on the floor sometimes and find myself returning to the mindset of that dark period where I began to believe he had stopped truly caring about me, but I can take a breath and remember that if I expressed those feelings to him, he will do his best to understand and even if he cant completely relate, he will give me the benefit of the doubt and tell me that he cares about how hard things can be for me. Let your emotions settle about how life could have been different to this point, if only youd known earlier, if only hed pursued treatment. And if I say anything he runs and hides and tells everyone how horrible I am. You got diagnosed. That is just the socially unacceptable but fun negatives. How on earth could it make sense to prioritize not seeing a friend for over six months he wasnt terribly close to as opposed to taking a trip with your wife to confront her childhood abusers? We take each person as they come, seeing that person and not a stereotype of ADHD. She is committed to staying married and raising our children together, basically roommate. We deserve happiness, too. At this stage, it is necessary to remain apart from your ex. They eventually break up, permanently, and go their separate ways. And was thinking allot about how much I sigh, something I know both my parents do too. Especially in the beginning of the relationship. I get it. Why risk losing the woman ya love? I just dont know how to even talk to him at this point without getting yelled at and then without consenting, getting stuck with all our shared responsibilities until he can self soothe enough to participate in our life. She feels no need for affection or intimacies until friendship, yet expects the friendship to be like she had with friends outside of our relationship. He doesn't want to leave or break up with his significant other, but he feels a strong impulse to do so. Just because someone is depressed, has anxiety, or [insert mental illness here], doesn't mean you should write them off. I reflect now10 years laterhow compassionate and forward-thinking she was for the strength of our marriage which she feared would not last without therapeutic support.. Once home, I saw he had dutifully set up my bedstead with a land-line phone and his cell phone. Sometimes when youre in the middle of the vortex, its hard to see straight. I am oh so tired of this pattern repeating itself. And my latest book, with psychologist Arthur Robin, details more elaborate strategies for ADHD-challenged couples. There were probably many good reasons that led you to that decision. Medication can be very helpful. If your with a person who has adhd and DID something then that warrants a break up. No diagnosis, no meds, tried couples therapy and hes the victim. I was so horrified and in despair. Five weeks to the day after my debut novel was published, my boyfriend, who is a writer, broke up with me because I am a writer. I was very sick a few years ago, thought it was the flu until I was bedbound, shaking uncontrollably. But too often, it does not. Hes stuck with me through everything including changing psych diagnoses ending with a set including ADHD that finally seem right. Needless to say there are times when both of us are unhappy with the other, him because of my behavior, and me because of the way he responds. But he cant even identify what he would want me to make him? If her husband is sick..Oh God, hes being a big baby, shell say, rolling her eyes. Im 35, and other relationships werent a priority in my life to this extent and came quickly, so this reaction didnt alarm me in my past. Anyone who has a known or suspected medical condition, or is taking medication of any kind, or has health concerns should consult a qualified health care provider before following any of the suggestions in this blog. My husband and I have been coping poorly with his ADHD and addiction(s) for 7 years; and just finally found respectable help for the past year. After he got on medication, I asked him to read a book about Borderline Personality Disorder (Loving Someone with Borderline Personality Disorder by Shari Manning). Its really encouraging to know that you are a source of helpful information that I can turn to, because when were not being really annoyed at each other we really enjoy being together. When ADHD affects a relationship, in one or both partners, it truly must be a team effort. Postscript: This morning I went to load the clothes into the washer. It seems that many people hunkered down during the worst of COVID. She put her emotions on me and expected me to carry her, her job was to earn a paycheck and pay bills and thats all she was interested in doing. Thank you, Gina! I finally got to my feet and limped Quasimodo-like back to my office, calling out as I went. Understandable from both sides. Counseling is not typically the treatment for ADHD symptoms and problematic behaviors as you describe here. We did lots of therapy. Yes, he cares very much. My husband is not hyper but must have ADD. And thats good enough for now. Often, though, he doesnt seem put upon by my latest malady, but more like he doesnt know what to do about it. https://adhdrollercoaster.org/book-club/chapter-12-solving-adhds-double-whammy/, Now, Im NOT saying, With medication, everything will be great!. I didnt know that blogs could have a draft/cache feature. What are the rules of a break up with one person as a non-ADHD and the other is ADHD? If someone loves you, adhd or not, they will stay. Im feeling anxious and sad most of the time and close friends have started to comment along with my grownup kids. The doc issued strict orders to keep my foot elevated and move as little as possible. Don't beat around the bush or otherwise hint at the fact that you want to breakup without actually saying it. . Everything youve described about your husband and his motivations/struggles sounds similar to my own. Ill ask my consultant about it. In the case where you dumped the guy, one common reason is that the guy doesn't want to be alone, he doesn't want to deal with his grief over the breakup, and he doesn't want to "deal with himself.". For others, there is just too much damage, too much need.sometimes the best we can do is save ourselves. Answers that deny and minimize ADHD-related challenges. Someone in my life for such a short time made such a difference and he passed away from CO poisoning due to a gas leak last December. forgetting to put on their seat belts, leaving dangerous medication out, driving dangerously, etc.). Kudos to your guy for all that you describe. All About Adult ADHD Especially Relationships. Working on it! Fortunately, he was in the Bay Area then: Daniel Amen, MD. Its been 40 long years. In the meantime, what can you do in terms of self-care? He is sweet, respectful and thoughtful most of time. I love this in particular in your comment: Computing all this I then said. Day. But its there. It is not a happy arrangement and Im currently seeking help for my codependency/ADHD to get better for myself and family. It takes effort and commitment, on both parts. Call 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or text "START" to 88788. But I am fairly sure youd have had answers sooner. I updated my fear scenario around being unable to rely upon him in an emergency. He says he doesn't want to cut off contact and I know he would be really sad if we did that. We are both from Panama and the wedding was there. I got waited on hand and foot and hockey was a constant. 3. This is a great post and one that I can really relate in both ways ; as someone with ADD and having a partner with ADHD. You dont want to believe that the person you fell in love with can be that cold, callous, or selfish. 4. You need to stop making contact if you have been calling or texting your ex-boyfriend over and over again. Wise and no-doubt hard-earned advice. Later when I talked to him about it privately, it was like we were in two different realities. Naming issues. He wants to make me feel good too when the absolute last thing I want to do with 16 staples in my abdomen is move.at all. She detached from our friends, our neighbors, all responsibilities, and refuses to acknowledge any of these actions. Self-medicating is a common phenomenon with undiagnosed ADHD, with all kinds of substances and activities (e.g. Surely he heard the cacophony. There is so much glad-hanging nonsense online, its anyones challenge to separate wheat from chaff and expertise from self-serving hustle. Please read or listen to my first book. We had brought separate cars. Any advice for severe RSD? I also know that B is as bad or worse at tending to his own health and welfare. Jules Dall admitted in a viral clip that midway through the couple's split, she snapped a photo on . As she explains what she's endured, however, her decision to break things off seems valid. But first some background. ; and a few others, but none of them seemed to be quite the thing for someone with an engineering/hard facts kind of person, especially as I have fairly high functioning ADHD, and there is quite a lot in each of the books that doesnt really apply to me. When I couldnt design a desk and shelving system and asked for help organizing things in the place hes renting for me so I can get treatment more easily, he replied I dont know anything about organizing things. I was shocked. And Ive asked my husband to YES go to the gym and if Im not done when he gets home, please help me just DO it He made sure to put food next to me before he left Im learning to appreciate those things. But with the habits and attitude that you describe him as having, medication will likely only go so far. Ill tell you my personal story in a minute. While Adderall works best for some, for many others, it lessens insight, increases irritability, grandiosity, and tunnel vision. Call a hot line. The most obvious sign of this was (and still is) that I am highly clutter-prone. I go to my Mothers house, to be close to her, he followed me and yelled at me some more in her driveway. Right now I am recovering from Covid. But the awareness is transforming my dynamic with my partner, who I believe also has ADHD. This is so key for ADHD-challenged individuals and couples. Offer to drive if you don't like the way your ADHD partner drives (too fast, too distractedly, etc.) For instance, problems with attention, hyperactivity, impulsiveness, and mood regulation often make it difficult for those with ADHD to develop social skills. He was shocked that I broke up . My heart goes out to you. If thats the case, you have a roe to hoe there with ADHD medication guidance and options, unfortunately. Take a deep breath, get some exercise and find something fun to do, suggests Meyers. Venting is important. One thing about where we lived in Idaho HOLY CRAP AWESOME NEIGHBORS! e.g. Ive had recovery periods where hes handed me a bell to ring when I need him that he cant hear from across the house.or in the next room. It seems that behavior you might not have tolerated in another person, you tolerated in this person, because he has ADHD and you wanted to be empathic? Since then I have spent a good amount of time researching it. The Internet has changed everything. All this time I thought it was just me and my unreasonable fear after seeing my spouse react with little empathy to his very ill mother. Ach, thats just.dirty. Now I know. All of my paranoia began when I realized that he was looking at MY phone all the time, and then concocted insane stories based on texts (etc.) And I behaved much, much more demandingly. Im so glad I found this site. I love him but our relationship is largely unhealthy. I agree with you.the Internet has been co-opted by amateurs peddling all kinds of ADHD snake oil. However well or poorly understood by both partners. If I am assertive and direct, I am harsh and controlling.. if he could just do the things without any hiccups or me having to prompt, I wouldnt have crap to say right?! But over time, as it heated up, your ability to get out of the pot diminished. By the way, Im not sighing because I dont want to help you, I think Im just sighing because my brain is switching gears. Its like a part of my brain is sighing, but not my heart, or my higher brain I absolutely want to help him, and make him feel supported. My husband, who worked at home then, swore he would be a regular Nurse Nightingalethe 62 and 230# version. There were many many incidents like this where I would get hurt and need his help, or a friend of his or one of his animals would be suffering and B seemed to see it as a major inconveniencesimilarly to how you describe your partner at times Its so tricky, the complexity. But first, turn on your speakers, because there are sound effects. For my husband and I, we are at a much better place now. :-). When I met my husband my mom got insecure and started doing a bunch of really mean and unreasonable things so I had to move out and in with him fairly early in our relationship. This is your life, hon. I love how you set it up, not by chapters but that one can just open it anywhere and read. There were no stable adults that were reliable (my dad was stable, but I didnt see him very much due to his living situation) and life was traumatic. After 4 years, this was his first time home and visiting his friends (he just LOVES the all). I began taking Concerta at that time,and it did help, but major damage had already been done, and it was not reversible. After a break up, we have to be willing to sit with our feelings and go through them. My dad and sister had to take me to the hospital and I remember calling him (this was around 12 am) in a very bad condition to let him know what was happening. But have a cop lie to me and I know it not just because I know more than the below average little kid he made me out to be but because it was so obviously a lie anyone would know? I chalk that up to what I had to learn about myself and love. It all depends on that individuals manifestation of this highly variable syndrome we call ADHD. I have regular weekly therapy where even my therapist says that i have therapy just to vent about my husbands lack of effort, emotional maturity, self awareness and continuous disregard for how his ADD and fractured executive functioning affect me and the family. Loads of people with mental health conditions are able to enjoy long lasting, fulfilling, happy relationships. Couples therapy never makes it past 2-3 appts before he shuts it down for one reason or another. And it feels malicious I know its not but the fact that he wont get help makes me feel like this is his choice To make my life as difficult as possible..And I have spent so much time and effort trying to understand and help him and I feel like this man understands nothing about me and doesnt even know me And isnt even interested in doing so. Keep the positives in mind. I understand their brain works differently than mine. In the meantime I went about trying to crawl to the bathroom to get a cold wet rag or something, but collapsed and passed out in the hall. Crap Creeping into the rest of the house! But he wasnt always THIS bad And THEN he caught his parents disease. My ex boyfriend and I broke up 14 days ago. And also when the same experience from family members, who also sigh a lot, and who I believe are high in ADHD traits / have ADHD, have left me feeling equally dejected, and triggered my frustration and depleted emotional bank account. 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